After years of keen observation on life, I understood my future was not written before I took shape in my mum’s womb, instead it is determined by my decision on the innumerable choices that nature presented in front of me. Every choice displayed had an undisclosed path to take me to some set future. The beauty of life is that one is absolutely free to choose any option as long as he/she is ready to face the aftermath. Even this moment presents us with ‘n’ number of choices. You can either chose honest path or dishonest path. Criminal path or otherwise. Etc.
Well, I stop it here as my intention is not to bore you with dry philosophical stuff. Instead, I would like to share with you the choices that I would like to make in my life. This may be relatively interesting I suppose.
I am not politically correct person or a fake modest person to ignore the importance of money. I am so adamant in saying that, money is the one which sets most of the problems right. But I am verywell aware that there is also life after money. The hunt for money itself is a huge activity which teaches lots of points on our life. I only want to treat earning money as a tool to understand life and to fulfill my honest needs but I am sure I don’t want to get intoxicated by it.
I visited a handful of western countries and I even had a chance to settle in one of them but I chose not to do that because of my own reasons. If my friend’s house is neat and clean compared to my home, I cant choose to stay there, instead I would like to clean my home. My country is dirty and low compared to many of the western countries and so I want to contribute my bit to clean it now. I believe all the misery this country faces is because of the ignorance of our people. I want to start a non political organization to make people politically eligible, to educate them on culture, confidence, freedom and how to think on their own etc. I am even ready to spend most of my earnings to improve the mental standard of our people which is at the moment filled with ignorance and selfishness. Hope this dream would come true someday.
Recently I notice few strange observations within me. Whenever I complain of something about someone, I feel I have the same complaint within me. When I say some one is adamant, I feel I am adamant too. Recently I complained a person that she is adamant and always wants others to adjust to her character. I advised her to change this attitude. Later on the rebel (yeah, the same rebel who peeked in my WHAT IS LOVE post :-)) inside me said aren’t you doing the same with her pal’. I started feeling all the happiness and sadness has something to do with our mind inside. So I would like to choose to allot some time to explore and give some exercise to my mind. I don’t know how much yoga and meditation can help, but decided to take it up. I also decided to give some exercise to my body which is relatively slower than my mind.
I wanted to learn the art of loving people, with all their differences.
I want to treat insult as like just another incident.
If I feel like crying I should be able to cry without any ego as I am a man.
I want to have my policies of honesty and straightforwardness unaffected by the pressures of money that my peers and other money fetishes insist on me.
So far I understood that we cannot avoid problems in life. Now I want to know how I could handle these problems in such a way that it doesn’t bother me.
I want to be flexible enough to accept new ideologies that help me learning the life better. (Remember the Zen story in my PERCEPTION post).
I believe family and friends are the set up created to understand the meaning of loving people. I want to use this opportunity to learn that art.
I want to understand and pay respect to those ailing elders who wants none other than a visit. I want to do this atleast once a week.
I don’t want to do anything to impress anyone. Be it a high post official or powerful politician or filthy rich money fetish or a beautiful girl, I want my behavior to be very natural.
I dont mind questioning even if it concerns God (which made me an agnostic). I want to keep it this way. I understood its only me who prompts others to behave in a particular way with me. And also I know its only me who is going to take or reject the effects of what is said to me. I want to understand this and alter my mind such a way that I am unaffected by external environment.
Finally I will give a small story to wake you up reading such a long philosophical crap.
Once a lady in a small village got pregnant illegally. Fearing the wrath of her family against her clandestine lover, in front of all the villagers, she pointed out a good zen monk in that village as the culprit. He was a very nice monk with all the good name until then. After hearing this from the lady, almost all the villagers hated and insulted him.
The father of that lady took the baby to him and said, “you are the culprit and you have to take care of him”
The monk said. “is it? Alright” with a smiling face.
A year passed, pushed by guilt, the lady revealed the truth that the zen monk had nothing to do with the child. Learning this, the father and villagers ran to the monk and fell on his feet begging pardon saying all the truth.
The monk said, “Is this. Alright” with a smiling face.
I want to be like that monk. Unaffected by the highs and lows.
Now the choice infront of me is, I can either spend my energy to do all this or spend my time lazying around. My future is in my hand now as usual.